Back in June, I wrote a blog post With God, I Can! In this post, I talked about how I was frozen in life from fear and how I didn’t think I could move forward in life. I then talked about how God was thawing my fear, with His love and promises and how I realized that with God I am capable of seeing past my fear and seeing life with God leading me.
When I wrote this post, it was more of a prayer than a testimony; I was still frozen by my fear when I sat down and penned it. Honestly, I was writing this to me; I was writing something that I didn’t really believe. I wrote my testimony while I was frozen by my fear and my shortcomings. However, since then, what I wrote in June has become my testimony.
Ever since I was eight years old, I have dreamed of being a doctor. Whenever I would play with dolls or friends, I wanted to be the doctor. I became fascinated with shows that dealt with medicine and doctors. When I would doodle in a notebook, I would write Dr. Elyse M. Greene MD; being a doctor was my dream and my calling. So, in May when I graduated and wasn’t accepted to medical school (I didn’t apply) or graduate school and didn’t have a job, I became frozen in fear. This fear was partly because I saw my failure and I believed it had defined me. I saw my failure and became fearful of trying to pursue what I was called to do.
So God, in His loving mercy and grace took what I believed made me a failure and gave me a job that was solely based off of the ‘failure’. He then placed me as an intern at an organization that sees the dream and the calling on my life and has opened doors that I could only imagine. One of these doors was a conference that I recently attended. The conference was the Student National Medical Association Region V conference. At the conference pre-med students, medical students and residents came and had workshops on recent medical issues, applying to residency and medical school. While I was there I heard story after story of people who thought they had failed. Instead of accepting their failure, they made new paths and pursued their calling.
These stories were powerful to me the person frozen by fear and failure. I saw me in every one of the stories that were being told by medical school students or residents on how they overcame their failure and were doctors or were studying to be one. It was in the last meeting that the promises found in Jeremiah 29:11, Philippians 4:13, Job 23:10, Romans 8:31- 39, Isaiah 55:8-9, Jeremiah 1: 5-10, Isaiah 43: 1-7; 18-19 and others came to mind. Every one of the promises has something in common: God is for me.
If you are frozen in fear or if you are frozen in failure remember that God is for you. With God, you can overcome the fear, the failure, the pain, you can live. With God, I can truly, now, more than ever see plan He has for me. With God, I know that one day, I will be Dr. Elyse M. Greene. With God, what made me a failure will be made my testimony. With God, I see life!
When you realize that with God, you can, you start to see the plan and purpose God has for your life and it changes you. You start to walk in your purpose, live in your purpose, talk in and about your purpose, you start to become the person that God wants to manifest the purpose on. I wrote a prayer back in June that has become my testimony. I am not frozen anymore in fear, but have been thawed by the promises that God has given me!